I snagged this off my daughter’s myspace this morning. It is a picture of my 5 yr old granddaughter, Amanda. They moved to Pennsylvania almost two years ago and I have not seen either of my grandchildren in almost a year. That has been really hard and even writing the words brings tears to my eyes..Must be hormones.
Anyway, I love this picture for several reasons. First, of course, because of the subject. This is proof to me that life is a horizon…there is a future. This is my connection to the future even more than my children. Second, I love the fact that my daughter, Erin, is so incredibly talented with a camera. She won a couple of photography awards in our homeschool group and she has really taken some amazing pictures..she has taught me alot! Third, I love this picture because of what it represents.
Always look ahead. There is always something new and cool on the horizon. There is always something to learn, to hope for, to live for. Look at the expression on her face! Hope, joy, fascination, LIFE!
I have been getting bogged down with life these days. It has been a month from Hell, literally, with no end in sight. My faith is definitely being tested and I will admit to more than my share of tears and a few fleeting thoughts of hopelessness. And then I see a picture like this and out of Heaven I suddenly am encouraged, flooded with the knowledge that this situation has come to pass! It won’t last forever.
We who homeschool sometimes lose sight of the big picture. We forget why we are doing what we are doing, we lose the ability to look up. Or maybe we just forget how. We become overwhelmed by circumstances and life-clutter and bowed down under the weight of things we were never meant to carry. I am there today, are you?
I wonder if the problem isn’t that we try so hard to pretend that nothing is different, that nothing is wrong? Instead of saying, ” my life is out of control right now, we are taking a break from school” we seem, I seem, to try harder to get more accomplished and prove to ourselves that no matter what we feel like we are going to “Git ‘er DONE”.
This is how we burn out, you know. This is how we fail. It all becomes work, drudgery, driven. We pass our bad attitudes on to our kids. And pretty soont he snowball effect has happened and everyone is slogging through, waist deep in the slough of despond.
I said last week that I had a small lump that showed up in my mammogram but I failed to say that they messed up my sonogram scheduling and it will be Sept 25 before they look at it more closely. I forgot to say that I am worried, scared, tense. I forgot to say that I am having a hard time not wondering why everything is hitting at once. And in all of that I didn’t say that I sometimes wonder what lies ahead for us.
And I forget to look up.
Amanda is looking up. I hope she always does.
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