It is VBS week around here. Usually I catch up on chores, make lists, work on curriculum or some other really important thing..You see, I am Relaxation Challenged.
This means that I feel horribly guilty if I am not doing something *important * at all times. Making lists, catching up on correspondance, checking out curriculum while watching t.v…balancing the checkbook while waiting in traffic…somewhere in me I have decided that doing these things makes me better than NOT doing those things.
Which is, of course, a lie from hell. Since Marc’s knee porblems began I have gone nonstop..I have to drive him to work and to his VA appointments ebcause he is on narcotic meds..(he has an opiate patch now…hopw 70’s, huh?) Anyway in the midst of all of this relentless activity I decided that this week I would relax. I would watch the grass grow, listen ot the clock tick…
Except yesterday while the kids were gone Marc and I both had appointments at the VA..He got a wheelchair and crutches (the kind with the handles that go around your wrist) and I got a mammogram. My first. I suggested to the tech that they could do double duty by using the mammogram machine to screen for testicular cancer but she laughed and said she didnt think her boss would go for it, being a guy and all. And then before I ever got out of the VA parking lot I was being told by my doc that they had found *something* and I have to go for a sonogram tomorrow at 9:30.
Are you seeing a pattern here? Once again my life seems to be spinning out of control despite my best efforts at keeping it spinning in a most sensible way.
Today I dropped the kids off at VBS, Marc off at work and then I came home and….
I slept. The kitchen was stacked up..the laundry needs to be done..the floors could use a good sweep…but I got undressed and got back in bed and I slept all morning.
And it felt good.
TOmorrow after my sonogram I am going to come home and sit on the porch in the rocking chair with a glass of sweet tea. Thursday i am thinking of napping on SHiloh’s bed because it is a big antique bed with beautiful roses carved in it…and a pillowtop mattress that is just heavenly. And Friday? I don’t know. Maybe I will lie on the couch in the front parlour.
I get it. You only live once. This is it. There isn’t time to get the chores done so you can relax later. There is no later-it is all now. Everything in balance..work, play, sleep.
There was an excellent entry in Guilt Free Homeschooling today. One of comments that I agreed with most heartily, although I nodded amen through the entire entry, was the following, “If I had waited to begin homeschooling until I felt confident enough in my own knowledge and abilities that I could answer any question my students might ask, well, I would still be studying. In reality, I learned right along with my students. If I became hopelessly confused on some topic, the resources and experiences of others were nearby in the form of other homeschoolers, reference books, internet websites, or packaged lessons. When we encountered an unfamiliar word, we consulted the dictionary together. When we stumbled over a math problem, we worked it out together. When we were stumped by a reference to an exotic location, we leafed through the atlas or did a quick “Google” search together. The bonds created through learning together taught my students more than just new information. My students saw first-hand that learning can be an enjoyable and profitable, life-long process.”
That is so true. In everything we do there is that stepping off spot, that first hesitent step forward, whether it is the first tentative pushes at the dough when we make our first loaf of bread or whether it is the faltering and unsteady movements we do on our first pair of skis. Begun is half done! Read the whole article..it is great.
A new blog, to me at least, is Principled Discovery . I found her entry from 7/23 on learning history through art an especially interesting stroll ( or maybe walkabout would be a better term) through aboriginal art forms. I got some good ideas and plan on working them into my own teaching plans…after this week when I stop relaxing!